Ranting about Placebo

I feel a definitive urge to rant about Placebo as the band will always have a special place in my heart. The ingenious and often queer lyrics of Brian Molko helped me come to terms with being trans before coming out. It was through his voice I realized how I truly felt, and I feel like I owe the band something in return. All I can give them is devotion though, which I already did back then :)
Here's the lyrics to a song that evokes a great emotional response in me:

"Nancy Boy"

Alcoholic kind of mood

lose my clothes, lose my lube
cruising for a piece of fun

looking out for number one
different partner every night
so narcotic outta sight
what a gas, what a beautiful ass.

And it all breaks down at the role reversal,
got the muse in my head she's universal,
spinnin' me round she's coming over me.
And it all breaks down at the first rehearsal,
got the muse in my head she's universal,
spinnin' me round she's coming over me.

Kind of buzz that lasts for days
had some help from insect ways
comes across all shy and coy
just another nancy boy.
Woman man or modern monkey
just another happy junkie
fifty pounds, press my button
going down.

And it all breaks down at the role reversal
got the muse in my head she's universal,
spinnin' me round she's coming over me.
And it all breaks down at the first rehearsal,
got the muse in my head she's universal,
spinnin' me round she's coming over me.

Does his makeup in his room
douse himself with cheap perfume
eyeholes in a paper bag
greatest lay I ever had
kind of guy who mates for life
gotta help him find a wife
we're a couple, when our bodies double.

And it all breaks down at the role reversal
got the muse in my head she's universal,
spinnin' me round she's coming over me.
And it all breaks down at the first rehearsal,
got the muse in my head she's universal,
spinnin' me round she's coming over me.

And it all breaks down at the role reversal,
got the muse in my head she's universal,
spinnin' me round she's coming over me.
And it all breaks down at the first rehearsal,
got the muse in my head she's universal,
spinnin' me round she's coming over me.

Even though the song is written about an effeminate gay man, I could relate to it, and it made me realize that there was nothing wrong about the way I felt. Wanting to be girly and liking boys did not mean I was a freak. Having never truly felt right as a boy, this song made me take the first step towards selfrealization and eventually helped me cope with my genderidentity confusion.

After coming out and trying to recover from the breakup. I listened to placebo a lot. Their lyrics, Brians voice, and the composition and sound of their music went straight to my soul and became a great part of my healing process.

today, Placebo is a metephor for human emotion in my life. They represent lust and sorrow, love and grief, compassion and spite. The soundtrack of being alive.

Hugs,
Kira <3